I was thinking about what to blog about for a few days and today I stumbled upon a gift that leads me to this post. Have you ever had a profound realization? Something that maybe you were trying to figure out and discover and the answer to that question was in front of you the entire time?
I got some time this week to have time in-between all the craziness at the hotel to explore this realization. It was an ah hah moment for me.. Inside of me, deep in my core, what defines me is my desire to please all those I associate with.. I generally put others before myself because seeing someone else smile is what makes me tick. Or at least I thought so.. I think finally after years of being nothing but someone who lays out her heart for the world, I finally realized that it is nearly impossible to do that and eventually not get burnt out because eventually you forget about what YOU want.
I have been so fortunate to be surrounded by so many great relationships. I think as I get older though, now I am ready to finally make life a little bit about myself.. and what I really want and where I want to see myself end up. When I say that, I am not referring to anything that is truly tangible. I want to dig deep into my relationships and crack the surface level of small talk and really understand my friend's thoughts and opinions about subjects that are meaningful to them. This is what I want - friendships that have a deeper meaning and those that I have the explore things with.
I thank God every day for having developed some of the current friendships I have.. and what I have realized is that next to dwelling deeper into conversation with those around me to engage my mind into things I may have never given much thought to, I am on a spiritual journey as well. It's time to finally decide what place and meaning God has in my life. As religious as I am internally, I am ready to really create an understanding between God and myself. The more faith I put in that trust, the lighter my heart will feel. For those of you who have contributed to this discovery, and you know who you are, I can not express my gratitude enough for helping me realize that there is someone who is always smiling down at me.
Very nice post. I like it a lot. True friendships are tough to beat. I agree and I would rather have a few key, very meaningful, open, deep friendships than to have a thousand relationships that are shallow, surface-oriented, guarded, fake, or random. Quality vs Quantity. It may be easy to get bogged down in those types of relationships, but we encounter so many people and there are only so many hours and opportunities in a day/year/lifetime. Many of those average types of relationships can become great friendships over time, though. We just have to listen, perceive, and decide who your time and efforts should be directed towards. i feel that everyone deserves an honest chance at a true friendship with me and I hope I am given the same with everyone I encounter.
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