Ah-HAH!

I was thinking about what to blog about for a few days and today I stumbled upon a gift that leads me to this post. Have you ever had a profound realization? Something that maybe you were trying to figure out and discover and the answer to that question was in front of you the entire time?

I got some time this week to have time in-between all the craziness at the hotel to explore this realization. It was an ah hah moment for me.. Inside of me, deep in my core, what defines me is my desire to please all those I associate with.. I generally put others before myself because seeing someone else smile is what makes me tick. Or at least I thought so.. I think finally after years of being nothing but someone who lays out her heart for the world, I finally realized that it is nearly impossible to do that and eventually not get burnt out because eventually you forget about what YOU want.

I have been so fortunate to be surrounded by so many great relationships. I think as I get older though, now I am ready to finally make life a little bit about myself.. and what I really want and where I want to see myself end up. When I say that, I am not referring to anything that is truly tangible. I want to dig deep into my relationships and crack the surface level of small talk and really understand my friend's thoughts and opinions about subjects that are meaningful to them. This is what I want - friendships that have a deeper meaning and those that I have the explore things with.

I thank God every day for having developed some of the current friendships I have.. and what I have realized is that next to dwelling deeper into conversation with those around me to engage my mind into things I may have never given much thought to, I am on a spiritual journey as well. It's time to finally decide what place and meaning God has in my life. As religious as I am internally, I am ready to really create an understanding between God and myself. The more faith I put in that trust, the lighter my heart will feel. For those of you who have contributed to this discovery, and you know who you are, I can not express my gratitude enough for helping me realize that there is someone who is always smiling down at me.

Back again

Hi there! I have not had a chance to update in a while, so trying to catch up today on things.

I got some feedback from friends that my blog made me seem like I was not completely happy. I hope that is not the impression I am leaving as I think those that are able to reflect and be in tune with their thoughts, are those that are happiest because they are aware of their inner thoughts and feelings. We are all on a journey through life and my intention on this blog is catalog my thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc. as I move through life.

The last week has been eventful. The hotel was super busy with new guests milling about, and I spent the weekend in Miami.. I must say, I always have an image of what a city is before I go there, and Miami is exactly what you think it will be. Beaches, beautiful people, pools, heat, palm trees, and a definite nightlife.

I am not sure I could live there, but had a blast visiting for the weekend! I felt slightly inferior in terms of my physical appearance after visiting, but it has me motivated to start a new fitness program!

Speaking of fitness.. I think I am finally back to my true form of enjoying to work out, exercise - with the weather getting a bit nicer now, it is easier to get yourself to get up and want to get yourself to the gym. I plan on spending the day cleaning the house today and afterwards, going to the gym to get me some cardio and weight action.

Trying to plan my next trip now.. not sure where we will end up going, but hopefully somewhere exotic and unique.. I want to go to South Africa, Turkey, Greece, Austria, Peru, New Zealand, Thailand, Malaysia, Singapore, and South India over the next 3-5 years. There is nothing better in the world to me than getting to experience a new culture and country. I love to see how people interact with one another and how their life differs so much to ours in the US. I also have realized that the US does have it's own culture. Each city is unique and carries its own flavors. People always knock on the US for not having the culture you find abroad, but I disagree. We just do not seem to realize it as much since the base of the US culture is the same.

I am dying to go to Charleston and Savannah and trying to work it into a trip we have planned to Orlando in October.. I love the deep South and want so badly to live there and be surrounded by the nature and the greenery.. I really hope we get to visit one of those two towns very soon.

Cheers to a new week and hopefully a very successful one. Have a great day!